Sunday, 28 February 2016

Who am

Who am I? This is a question that I ask myself frequently. I think, I may even have a post from the early days of this blog, chronicalling how I was confused about me.... It's funny because sometimes, in moments of amazing clarity, I feel like I'm beginning to figure it out. I deduce that I'm a 28 year old woman with some great qualities and full of dreams. I'm a daughter. I'm a sister. I'm a friend. I'm a midwife. And then I draw a blank....

Now this isn't a pity is just my musings being spoken aloud. 

How do we find out who we truly are within? I can't lie, I've started this year off not quite as I would have liked and as such it has made me question myself countless times. A blossoming romance was quashed with no warning, being generally stuck on pause and a few more extra pounds than really acceptable have been the tip of the iceberg. I've spent day after day yearning for love and intimacy, searching for fulfilment and wanting to be content...yet these things seem to evade me. But I'm starting to slowly realise that while we are sometimes subject to situations beyond our control, we (well us and The man upstairs) have the ability to change course if things just aren't working. I have spent too many days, afternoons and nights dreaming about a happier's time to start putting in the work to make this a reality. Now don't get me wrong, I'm very fortunate; I have a good job, a roof over my head and people that care...but I need more than that. This year, it is my mission to be able to stand wherever I am in the world on December 31st 2016 and reflect on a somewhat great year.

So how do I plan to do this you ( well all 2 of you who may read this blog) may be thinking? 

Great things don't come to those who live in their comfort zone...I actually think that sometimes it does however in my case I need to grow..and to grow I need to take a leap of faith...

I can't reveal all at this stage but change is definitely coming...I hope you'll come along for the ride!

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